Today what felt like most of my Janathon experience took place before I'd even moved out of bed. I lay there for ages telling myself to get up; telling myself if I did and went running it would be done for the day; telling myself to stop being a wimp; telling myself that the vague aches I could feel in my legs would benefit from being forced into movement. In response my body clearly felt I needed a lesson in mechanisms or protest, or in particular in the mechanism of one type of protest - dumbly and silently ignoring my every mental challenge to myself.
The village was silent. Then church bells rang for ages. Then the village was silent again. I heard some cars go past. Other people were up and about. And still I fought myself while my body lay still and warm and very happy, apparently in its little cocoon.
Eventually other things intruded (mostly all the other things which need to be done today, upping the guilt quotient coursing through me - an area of particular expertise) and I did indeed move (ok, so the now demanding need for the loo helped!). My brain won over my protesting legs and shoulders. The running gear went on, I stretched while doing the usual search for a hairband, I drank some water, and headed out.
But it seems my body was right in its protest because again, today, it hurt. The good news is I went that little bit faster - just under 10 minutes per mile. The not so good news is that I managed only just over a mile. Sigh. It is good, it is done, and I am glad for it too. But I do wonder why I appear to be so unresilient this time around? (A ponder: is breakfast, or lack thereof, part of the problem? I've been running mid-morning before eating, and I wonder if that is holding me back a little? I suspect not and it is just low overall fitness but still, any possible excuse seems worth clinging onto...)
From now on life is going to get more difficult however. For tomorrow I go back to work. I have been truly lucky to have had all this week off but it is going to be a heavy plunge back in with a week that is already looking intimidating ahead. I will continue my Janathon, I am determined - and everyone else seems to be doing brilliantly - but my apprehension is growing.
However for today I am jogged, I am logged, and now I am blogged. JLB, done and dusted!
Well done 697 I'd it even if it was a struggle to start :) I know what you mean about work, I go back tomorrow after a fab week off and Janathon is going I require lots of motivation, but do you know what, we can do it, yeah!
ReplyDeleteI'm typo at beginning... Think it was meant to start with well done for getting out there and doing it :)
ReplyDeleteWe can and we will, you are so right! Janathon solidarity rules!
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